Pre-op Checklist

Today, I signed on the dotted line to have Lenny evicted!  I first met with the Surgeon who went through the procedure and what to expect on the day.  Apparently I will need to get there by 7am and I will be 2nd on the list so I might get a bit of  “Lorraine” and “Homes under the Hammer” before I go down!

Apparently he will come and “draw” on me before surgery – I have flashbacks to primary school and “marking” out our sewing in chalk before we did it “properly”!!

He asks if I have questions. My husband has had one on his mind which I ask on his behalf.  He wants them to know I bleed out a lot when I had my son and that they have enough “cross match” – as they say on Holby City 😉

“Any more questions”?

“Well you have answered most but I do have 3 very important questions” I say whilst trying to keep a straight face…..

  1. Can I drink Gin this weekend?
  2. When can I run again?
  3. Can I still do weight watchers?

I won’t tell you the replies but these were very important questions to me!

Firstly I was going to give Lenny a send off that he would always remember and that would involve my favourite drink!  Secondly, 12 months ago I made the decision to become the helathiest version of me I could be and I joined weight watchers.  I have steadily lost almost 3 stone. There is no way I want to go back to where I was.  Last but not least, just under a year ago I could not run 100 metres. I was never built to be a runner and probably never will be but I challenged myself off the couch and now Ipreop

can run 10k – I never thought I would say that and running has really helped me to control stress and particularly anxiety over the last 4 weeks!

Anyways, enough of that – I need to plan a Lenny’s leaving do!!! – omg this could get messy!!!





Meeting the Surgeon


Today I met with my Surgeon for the first time.  He has been recommended by so many people and I admit I have googled him probably enough times for me to be labelled a stalker but I need to know I am in safe hands and that his “Sewing” is up to standards.

Another thing I am learning through this process is how short the appointments are and how quick I am having to make huge life changing decisions.  We go through my stats then he makes a call the the Radiographer who saw me.  “Do you think we need an MRI? he asks? Suddently I feel sick, an MRI – omg does he think it has spread?? My heart starts racing and I can feel the anxiety shaking kicking in.  I then become relieved when I can tell from his response that the answer was “No”. Phew, heart starts to return to normal.

We discuss Options – Basically I have 2 – a lumpectomy which is where they remove the lump and reconstruct using tissue from my back or a Mastectomy and reconstruction using my stomach muscles.

We go through the pros and cons. The good thing about having worked at fast paced technology companies all my working life is that I have to make decisions quick.  So I am used to this piece of a process. But making decisions about your health, your life, the piece of my body that played a huge part in making me a women and provided food to my little man for the first 12 months of his life is very different to making a decision to approve a financial investment.

For me it comes down to time “under the knife” and getting Lenny out asap.  I ask about when we can do this and a lumpectomy can be done in 5 days time. Decision made  – get this bas$ard out of me!!!


Glad it went well, I guess it was as you expected. They know as much as you right now…. But just think…. this time Monday… the fu7king tw£t bolloc&s cancer will be gone, It’s just damage limitation from there on in.  You know I am here whenever….I’ll text you monday if you don’t mind, You can always block me. Lots of love gorgeous lady. Cxx

Omg, you should do stand up – you crack me up with your comments! You can text me whenever and keep those comments coming! Gxx