After my radiotherapy graduation, I make my way over to the Chemo assessment ward with mum.  It’s great to have her here, I know it will mean a lot to her to be involved and will help her to understand what lies ahead over the next few weeks.

It’s the usual form filling, going through side effects but there are a few new things I have learnt today.  Apparently I should wash all my clothes separate to the boys in case the chemo leaks out of my clothes and could be toxic to them – OMG seriously?  I will obviously comply but that is kinda freaky??? And on a purely selfish note don’t I have enough bloody washing to do already?

I won’t freak you out with side effects, at the end of the day we are all individuals and we all react differently.  I have spent too many hours over the last weeks freaking out about the side effects that I have seen posted on the fb network… so much so I have had turned off all notifications from the group.  I need to remember that I am controlling this and I need to  remain positive.

Next comes to blood taking…and don’t we have fun!

I do warn them I don’t do “cold” hence why I have rejected the offer of the cold cap firmly on every occasion I have been asked.

OMG – this room I have been brought into is just like a freezer -I can instantly feel my veins run back inside.  I don’t bloody blame them!

I can’t help but shiver, I may have actually turned into Mrs Frosty.  “Why is it so cold in here?” I ask curiously?

Wait for the response…

“The freezer for the cold capping is kept in here” – there they go again, haunting me.  Am I the only person with a phobia for head freeze cap?

Confidence is growing – NOT and you know what happens next, yep my veins have not just gone back inside but they have left the building!

The nurse keeps trying, she is very apologetic and ends up asking for help, even the 2nd helper is struggling.  They then move down my arm to my wrist, it’s not much better, one drip at a time and I am NOT joking.

We are all hoping and praying they have enough for the tests!  I will definitely be checking up on these later! Fingers crossed those oil capsules have worked!

Next time I am bringing a snowsuit!