The thing they say about chemo cycles are you have your good and bad days.
It’s chemo day 9 and I woke up this morning definitely feeling more “normal” than I have done since Chemo began.
I grab my phone from downstairs and do my usual ritual:
- Check emails
- Check Facebook
- Work email
Yes you did read that last one correctly, yes I know I am off sick. Don’t give me a lecture, I am a big girl you know!!
The fact is it’s quarter end at work and in the world of finance it’s a crazy time. I can see from the email time stamps that my right hand lady has been working into the early hours. I feel bad, the last things want is for her to be burning the candle at both ends!
I’m gonna drop her a text, I could really do with seeing if my brain still works today, even if it is just for an hour!
On a serious note, one thing I am concerned about is chemo brain. I am told from reliable sources it’s not a myth and it does happen. If I can keep my brain stimulated then maybe I could “trick” my brain and the chemo. Surely crunching numbers will keep those brain cells super strong!
Sound convincing? Ok… maybe not, but if the truth be known I also know that this journey that I am facing is inevitable going to knock my confidence.
It’s something, if I am honest, really worries me. I am naturally an outgoing and confident person but as the rag and bone man sings “I’m only human after all”. Feeling a tad vulnerable right now is normal 😦
Lenny tried to take my boobs and he’s gonna take my hair but he is NOT going to take my confidence!
A couple of hours later and I’m in my little excel world! Oh excel I have missed you! Once a bean counter, always I bean counter!
You know that little bit of work I have done has really gave me the boost I needed, a bloody huge boost! My brain is still working, I really feel like I have helped my team and made a difference today.
If you could see me know, I am literally dancing around the room, boy have I got a spring in my step!
Today is definitely a “good” day!
Gem has returned!