Pudsey Bear

It’s Friday, it’s Chemo day 5 but most importantly it’s Pudsey Bear day!!!

For the last few days, I’ve been “buzzing” from the steroids! Still no sickness or feeling rubbish which I am very thankful for but I have been literally bouncing off the walls day and night, definitely the closest I have ever got to what it feels like to be a “junkie”!!!

Yesterday I took my last steroid so like a junkie then come the steroid “slumps” as I call them. I am praying that tonight I will “crack” the sleep code, after days of insomnia, I will beat the basta%d steroids to some sleep! Positive Mental Attitude!!

But today although still sleep deprived, nothing was going to get in my way of Pudsey Bear! For those reading from outside the UK, Pudsey is the iconic teddy behind a huge fundraising event in the UK called Children in Need.  It is massive annual event and most schools and organisations get involved in some way or another.

So, I slapped on some makeup and took the little man to school, WE have both been so excited since I bought him his Pudsey outfit last week!  It really is the little things that lift you from the shitty poison going through your body.  I am not sure which one of us had the biggest smile when we went through the school gates!


At lunch, I went to see my oil lady to pick up some “essentials”, I have been reading that “Rosemary” is good for hair growth so I desperately need to get my hands on some, will give anything a go to get my locks back ASAP, hopefully people won’t think I smell like a roast lamb joint!

I spend a couple of hours there, she made me the most amazing homemade pea and mint soup and we have a lovely chat and catch up.

I must admit by the afternoon I am fading fast and by the time Pudsey officially starts at 7:30pm I am in the land of zzzzz on the sofa. I do wake up for a bit, enough to have a laugh from the comedy sketches and long enough to have tears in my eyes at the “real” stories of the children in need.  It’s at times like this, things are put into perspective.  Yes, I have a Serious Illness but there is always someone worse off than ourselves.  It may not seem like it at times, sometimes our own problems overwhelm us and we are all guilty of being a bit “self-absorbed” in our lives but if we STOP…..take a look and reflect, there are always so many things to be thankful for.

With that I go and give my beautiful little man a special kiss on his head, I am so thankful to have been blessed with such a healthy boy.

Night night Pudsey bear, see you in a year’s time for more fun!


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