Can you believe last friday was a year ago exactly that I was given the “official” letter that I had an unwanted boob squatter, Lenny the boob cancer lump.
Bollock$ ..shi$, crap, I was not expecting that at 38!
Well Lenny, I guess it would have been your 1st birthday today, sorry Lenny but you are not here to blow out your candle!
It’s strange, I guess I didn’t know how I would feel. They say cancer-versaries are tough, but I’ve actually been emotionally in a good place.
I am not naive enough to think it won’t catch up with me, Cancer dvds have got a funny bloody way of creeping up on you when you least expect it!
One thing that I have really noticed the last few weeks, I don’t go to bed anymore thinking of the big C or waking up with the cancer dvd playing – that’s got to be a good thing right?
It’s not been easy either the last couple of weeks, I’ve had a couple of curb balls chucked at me.
First I had a suspected stress fracture on my leg – thankfully turned out to be soft tissue issue but for a few hours I thought my Great North Run dreams were over! I did have tears in my eyes which turned to bloody tears of joy when the x-ray came back clear!!!
Secondly, my company has just been acquired. Maybe pre cancer I might have worried that bit more but when you have had this horrible basta$d disease try and threaten your life and your happiness – the other stuff just doesn’t seem to matter the same.
What will be, will be….. health is more important than any job!
On a more happier note though, it’s been an amazing couple of weeks with my little one. Lenny has not got in the way of him having a great year at school. 100% attendance ( got to thank the oils for that), exceeding in Reading and Maths and great at solving problems – what more can you ask for!
He came home with “big boy” books last week, he was so proud! No more Biff and bloody Kipper!!! – woohoo!!!!!
But guess what, his book was about Lenny!!! ffs!!! but he did say to me “Mummy, it’s ok, It’s not about Lenny the lump” – phew!!
I have certainly made up for not being able to attend all the winter school events due to chemo, I was the proudest Mummy in the world watching him in his school play as a beetle and see him finish 2nd in his sport’s day races!
I did avoid the Mum’s race though, there is no bloody way I am risking getting another injury, nothing is stopping me finish the Great North Run!!!
Instead I am gonna raise glass or too and toast to good health and happiness and making every day count!